Coming Home. Last week we found out my mom's cancer has gone to her spine. Reality hitting home. Things aren't getting better. The cancer isn't going away. Living on the opposite coast, it's easy to get distracted. Busy with my own life. A couple days go by and I haven't called my mom. I don't know what her day-to-day is like right now. I'm not cooking for her. Keeping her company. My son isn't climbing on the couch behind her head. My mom isn't reading him stories. They aren't playing chess together.
I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. A few weeks ago this is what I decided to do. Fully. No blocks. Nothing unresolved. Nothing in the way. Forgiveness and Pure Love for my Mama. Because she gave us everything she could. Supported us 100 % always. Because she's an amazing, funny, creative, wise lady. Because she's my mom. Sometimes the answer comes to us before the problem. I'm thankful when that happens. Makes life a bit easier. Because loving my mom unconditionally is all I can do right now. And it's the greatest gift I can give her. And myself. This is our healing. Not the shape I would've chosen. Definitely not. But this is our time to shine. I forgive you, Mom. There are no blocks to my love for you. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. My mom says, don't come for me. I say, I want to be there with you. It's for me too. I am coming to NY for me as well. Because I want to spend as much with you as I can. Just want to be with you. Because the nurturing is mutual. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. And I hope and pray for your miracle. I believe that is possible. Miracles can & do happen. That message has been loud & clear this week. But we have to believe it's possible. Believe in ourselves. Believe in God. Mom, your miracle is possible. Please believe you are worthy. Open up that divine love waiting there for you. I believe in you. I love you. I forgive you. I am ready to come home. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. I Love My Mom. Got it, Mama? I love you.
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Be Thankful for Life. And then we land Right where we belong In ourselves Where we're meant to be The Light goes on Exhale Relax Suddenly it all makes sense The place of our Oneness We got it back Our minds Our bodies Our spirits rest at ease In this life of ours We are fully human As the teachings say At least we're on our way We're thankful for Life Our own And the greater whole Our wells are deep Spirits soar It's not like life is perfect Might still be hard But what's greater is clear Even stronger We're ready Step into that Purpose Time to Fly Soar above it all Golden wings Help from above Grounded and Free Simple Gifts Loving Life © Megan Barella, 2014 ~ This Year 2014 I am Thankful for Life ~ Feel that Pain. |
Mama Megan
Hi friends, I write from the heart to tell my life story, and the story of those in my neighborhood called life. Research shows that our children's emotional & mental health is contingent upon us parents being able to tell our life story, or "coherent narrative." This is my coherent narrative, my life story in the making, with some of what I love in life too. My goal is to share my life in a way that is real, uplifting & positive- sometimes serious, sometimes fun. In my practice, I inspire parents to empowerment through reclaiming our life stories and learning respectful discipline. My work is my offering to our children- our future. Wishing you all a happy family! Archives
May 2021
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